Thursday, July 15, 2004
Things really do get better....
Today was a good day. I stayed late to do all that bad old data entry stuff yesterday so managed to achieve today in preparation for my temp tomorrow - I've never had a minion... I'm sure that for many getting to be the boss of someone is no thrill but oh think back to the joy of the first time. Lets hope there is more to it than anticipation (Shh don't remind me I had minions for 3 months last year in my temp job. I'd forgotten)
Certain levels of irrationality are being resolved in my minds eye today too. It's the old 3 months in had a long weekend apart is the relationship really as sunshine and light as I thought week this week. Then I have this realisation "no, I'm not going off it so it must be him..." and then there was the "the rosey glow has to fade" moment but I've discovered a new one "of course if you're on a diet you're going to be at odds with me when I'm not". We'll I don't even relate do I? I don't have the same set of self images etc. I don't have the same relationship with food/size/reward/loss at all. Finally I can relate to a very large group of the population on a topic that is very common to many people. Admittedly I am relating to a large number of middle aged (or 20 + anyway) Y chromosome carriers who spend 10 months of the year (and quite frankly how the do it without going insane I don't know) with partners on diets. Well I say fair cop to equality you men have suffered women dieting for the last 40 years so why shouldn't us women folk have a go now?
Putting aside the sheer unreasonableness of what I've just said (I may have to be sympathetic of the dieter, however I do not have to go through all the physical and mental anguish of being one) it is becoming easier to understand the difficulties of everyday relationships that nutrition control puts on most people. And I say WHY WHY WHY didn't I discover this 15 years ago so I could have truly valued the experience of not having to diet before? Even 1 year ago so I could have rewarded myself when I was busy working hard at loosing 10kg by being aware of what a wonderful person I was by saving my time of diet for a period when I was single so no one person ever even imagined they might be expected to show my diet a little consideration....
Certain levels of irrationality are being resolved in my minds eye today too. It's the old 3 months in had a long weekend apart is the relationship really as sunshine and light as I thought week this week. Then I have this realisation "no, I'm not going off it so it must be him..." and then there was the "the rosey glow has to fade" moment but I've discovered a new one "of course if you're on a diet you're going to be at odds with me when I'm not". We'll I don't even relate do I? I don't have the same set of self images etc. I don't have the same relationship with food/size/reward/loss at all. Finally I can relate to a very large group of the population on a topic that is very common to many people. Admittedly I am relating to a large number of middle aged (or 20 + anyway) Y chromosome carriers who spend 10 months of the year (and quite frankly how the do it without going insane I don't know) with partners on diets. Well I say fair cop to equality you men have suffered women dieting for the last 40 years so why shouldn't us women folk have a go now?
Putting aside the sheer unreasonableness of what I've just said (I may have to be sympathetic of the dieter, however I do not have to go through all the physical and mental anguish of being one) it is becoming easier to understand the difficulties of everyday relationships that nutrition control puts on most people. And I say WHY WHY WHY didn't I discover this 15 years ago so I could have truly valued the experience of not having to diet before? Even 1 year ago so I could have rewarded myself when I was busy working hard at loosing 10kg by being aware of what a wonderful person I was by saving my time of diet for a period when I was single so no one person ever even imagined they might be expected to show my diet a little consideration....
// posted by Bitvacuous @ 11:24 pm 
