Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Christmas
Christmas is now over. The cold - which laid me low for days - is nearly over. I can breathe, my sinuses don't hurt, my cough merely echos no longer sounds like 40 capstans a day. My throat is merely red, not red raw, not an aching bone around. I don't like being ill. I like it when dealing with chaps parents even less.
They were nice enough, clearly care a lot about their son (although clearly the elder one is on a pedestal at the moment and this younger one needs to be made to grow up by his girlfriend. Shame I'm not the girlfriend for that job... should I tell them....). His mum does take faffing to an artform beyond that I thought possible - I had never imagined that my mother could be out faffed. There is always a story (I recognise something I have in common with them, whilst being well aware it is irritating), and I found it very hard work in the end. Didn't realise how hard until they left. Hey ho - I don't have to see them more than once a year do I? And at least I appreciate the finer qualities of mine a bit more now. Chap reverts to a petulant teanager in their company so that doesn't help that I'm irritated with him so much of the time. Luckily am on study leave now - may see him tomorrow evening but have 2 days off for good behaviour.
Xmas day was OK - bizarre present ritual was survived, too much food was survived. (as in I opted to eat less). No walk was a very bad thing but the impact of that was more noticible yesterday. Some OK books were aquired (as in they seem OK) some dreadful smellies appeared from said parents, somehow Chap has failed to register my "lush is evil" rants and he too contributed to that disappointment. Dodgy earrings from my cousin, healthy cheque from my parents and disposable camera from elsewhere... Stranger and stranger said Alice!
boxing day at Chaps mates parents in Glossop was fine - don't think I upset anyone, no one upset me, couple of the people who are top buddies with his ex were there but I think we rubbed along OK. I just haven't found a common interest yet I think that is my problem. Everyone else was fine to the point where I could almost consider going to the birthday next week that chap cant make but I will be around for. Am waiting his input on that one as if he feels threatened by me going without him then I guess I don't (however I do think deeply about the whole nature of relationships once the assignment frenzy is over)
Ah yes. The assignment frenzy. this is what I'm doing right now. Assignments. Have 2 to do for 1 weeks time. Can you tell? I have a heap of books downstairs. I have a heap of files upstairs. I have done an entry in the reflective journal demonstrating some thought is occuring. I am now avoiding a bit, I think that I'll have lunch for a bit and sort some piles of books out first. I am not in the "frightened bunny too much to do to make a start" stage yet but I will be if something is not achieved this afternoon. My new year starts after the assginements. My new year may be a very scary place as I suspect my new year contains a vast array of required changes because my old year end is indicated some serious moving on is needed. However as my new year courses consist of the finance module I suspect my required changes may have to be patient till May. Why? Because I hope the finance module will provide the knowledge I need to move on in my job a lot more than anything else.
My finances personal will need attaching with a sledgehammer - I have a feeling that £2000 needs to be found in the next 2 months which is not going to be easy. At least today I am in a calm and happy place ... lets work then!
They were nice enough, clearly care a lot about their son (although clearly the elder one is on a pedestal at the moment and this younger one needs to be made to grow up by his girlfriend. Shame I'm not the girlfriend for that job... should I tell them....). His mum does take faffing to an artform beyond that I thought possible - I had never imagined that my mother could be out faffed. There is always a story (I recognise something I have in common with them, whilst being well aware it is irritating), and I found it very hard work in the end. Didn't realise how hard until they left. Hey ho - I don't have to see them more than once a year do I? And at least I appreciate the finer qualities of mine a bit more now. Chap reverts to a petulant teanager in their company so that doesn't help that I'm irritated with him so much of the time. Luckily am on study leave now - may see him tomorrow evening but have 2 days off for good behaviour.
Xmas day was OK - bizarre present ritual was survived, too much food was survived. (as in I opted to eat less). No walk was a very bad thing but the impact of that was more noticible yesterday. Some OK books were aquired (as in they seem OK) some dreadful smellies appeared from said parents, somehow Chap has failed to register my "lush is evil" rants and he too contributed to that disappointment. Dodgy earrings from my cousin, healthy cheque from my parents and disposable camera from elsewhere... Stranger and stranger said Alice!
boxing day at Chaps mates parents in Glossop was fine - don't think I upset anyone, no one upset me, couple of the people who are top buddies with his ex were there but I think we rubbed along OK. I just haven't found a common interest yet I think that is my problem. Everyone else was fine to the point where I could almost consider going to the birthday next week that chap cant make but I will be around for. Am waiting his input on that one as if he feels threatened by me going without him then I guess I don't (however I do think deeply about the whole nature of relationships once the assignment frenzy is over)
Ah yes. The assignment frenzy. this is what I'm doing right now. Assignments. Have 2 to do for 1 weeks time. Can you tell? I have a heap of books downstairs. I have a heap of files upstairs. I have done an entry in the reflective journal demonstrating some thought is occuring. I am now avoiding a bit, I think that I'll have lunch for a bit and sort some piles of books out first. I am not in the "frightened bunny too much to do to make a start" stage yet but I will be if something is not achieved this afternoon. My new year starts after the assginements. My new year may be a very scary place as I suspect my new year contains a vast array of required changes because my old year end is indicated some serious moving on is needed. However as my new year courses consist of the finance module I suspect my required changes may have to be patient till May. Why? Because I hope the finance module will provide the knowledge I need to move on in my job a lot more than anything else.
My finances personal will need attaching with a sledgehammer - I have a feeling that £2000 needs to be found in the next 2 months which is not going to be easy. At least today I am in a calm and happy place ... lets work then!
// posted by Bitvacuous @ 1:13 pm 
